India. And Nepal. What extraordinary, vibrant, beautiful, spiritual, chaotic countries.
I can honestly say, without fear of exaggeration, that my trip has been life changing. What have I learnt and how have I been affected? In so many ways…
What have I learned?
I have learnt to be prepared to be surprised by God. He will manifest himself in places and people unexpectedly. Also, to be more aware of and open to the divine energy of the Holy Spirit.
I have realised I should never stop expanding my horizons. I have never been a settled person and have often through my life been described as a gypsy or nomad. I have previously interpreted this as a bad thing but have now realised that it may have been and continue to be God’s will for my life. I have become very interested in peregrinatio pilgrimage and I intend to explore this further.
More relaxed and calm
I have learnt to be more relaxed and open to the unfamiliar and to embrace more readily new experiences and be prepared to take more risks. I seek to be “dynamic and erratic, spontaneous and radical, audacious and immature” William Stringfellow
I am learning to live calmly in the moment. To be patient. To know the power of now. To walk slowly and live slowly and leave my pride at home.
I have learnt to get involved more readily. To quote Amir, “remember, one hand cannot make a clap”.
More honest and can appreciate the divine
I believe I have always been a fundamentally honest person, but I think I now understand the importance of being more honest with myself.
Perhaps most importantly I have learnt to bow to the divine in other people – Namaste.
Finally, and with grateful thanks to Catherine Askew for recommending it, and for all her other help and wisdom, I will leave you with a song from Alanis Morissette. Thanks for reading. I hope I have been entertaining and perhaps just a little inspirational.
Thank U How 'bout getting off these anti-biotics How 'bout stopping eating when I'm full up How 'bout them transparent dangling carrots How 'bout that ever elusive 'could have' Thank you India Thank you terror Thank you disillusionment Thank you frailty Thank you consequence Thank you thank you silence How 'bout me not blaming you for everything How 'bout me enjoying the moment for once How 'bout how good it feels to finally forgive you How 'bout grieving it all one at a time Thank you India Thank you terror Thank you disillusionment Thank you frailty Thank you consequence Thank you thank you silence The moment I let go of it was the moment I got more than I could handle The moment I jumped off of it Was the moment I touched down How 'bout no longer being masochistic How 'bout remembering your divinity How 'bout unabashedly bawling your eyes out How 'bout not equating death with stopping Thank you India Thank you providence Thank you disillusionment Thank you nothingness Thank you clarity Thank you thank you silence